Sunday, 9 December 2007
I'm not in a good mood. so whoever may be reading this, have the choice of coming here. and you have the choice of reading on. but if you dont wanna waste your time reading my bullshit. go away. Im not in a good mood. so IF you wanna read on, expect the worst also. Thanks.
alright..right now, I just feel like breaking down. but I wont. I just dont find any meaning in life sometimes..and cant help but think that I would be better off dead. After all, no one cares. I dont get it okay. I dont get anything. anything at all. because no one ever told me a shit.
Just what happened? I remember that time when you told me that you dont get why everyone could accept that fact that you were b~ while I cant? And than I replied you. and than somehow, you just gave up after that. You said something like, You know what, just forget it. I even wanted to patch things up or sth like that.. haix. I never said I couldnt. its just that. to say it at a time after a breakup? I just couldnt take it okay. and you never gave me the chance to make the better of things anymore. everything just turned hostile soon after that.
and I also remember that you once said, "I'll never break with you. and even if you wanna break with me, I will say 'no' la" or sth similar. but the point is there anws.
what happened to everything? for awhile, things were still okay after the break. but just what happened that caused this relationship to turn bad? Isit me? Isit something I did? Or isit something that someone else did? or isit a misunderstanding? I dont get it. cause you never cared to explain anything. anything at all.
alright..I've nothing more to say for now..Im tired. sick and tired of everything ba. I guess Im gonna sleep now.....that is IF I can. so yeah.
15:07, & I live by faith and not by sight for you
