Friday 22 February 2008
Alright. My mum's the best mum in the whole wide world. a very noble mum know. she'd rather suffer herself, then letting us, her kids, suffer. She was ranting on much just now...and it just revealed to me so so much today. I never knew..
She's damn hurt ba. all the hurt for all these years..omg ba. Just seeing her cry just now, hurt me very much, and I very much almost cried too. but I held back ba. I just felt so helpless, unable to do anth to help her. but in the distant future point of view, I've decided ba.
Decided to be the best I can be. for the sake of my mum. study hard. get a good job. and just help her be happy I guess. Let her lead a good life ba.
I also realised. that ppl from poor families, are able to stand out from the rest. and just score well for everything. and even top the level! perhaps because of the need to do well ba. well, now I'll do well too.
okay, thats about all. I just so wanted to hate my dad. but nope, I've converted that hate, to motivation to study alright. Peace(:
16:17, & I live by faith and not by sight for you
Saturday 16 February 2008
Yo. Today was quite okay..went to church to study at 1. and only phyllis was there. then martin and all came. and crapped much. then went for class, which was like plain boring. Obviously it wasnt my teacher. Then after class, went to compass. sat at bk for like 3hrs. First hr eating, and crapping with raph and martin for the last 2 hrs. then homed. And boy, it was a real slow walk today. Oh wells. thats about all.
I promise. NEVER to be like the way the Man of the House is right now. just plain arrogant shit. doing church work in everyway on one hand, and behind the scenes, just gambling and neglecting the family. It just totally contradicts okay. Like such ass! Hate the way home are such cold places for some people. just because of the man. I'll never want to be like this. IT DISGUSTS ME.
Okay, say what you wanna say about me, but thats just the way I feel. I know I shouldn't talk like this. but I just dont get it alright. Sometimes I just cant help but wonder, if he does so much church work and it is for God, why so, does he treat outsiders, even better than family then. perhaps. this sly man just wanna show off his 'wealth' in the name of God. He aint in any bit rich at all in the first place anws. And to quote my mum, 'Everybody gets richer right. How come your dad gets poorer?' I give up. God save your people.
23:36, & I live by faith and not by sight for you
Tuesday 12 February 2008
Wow. time flies. so fast 12th alrd.
Anws, managed to loosen up a lil the past few days alright. Due to the cny holidays and everything. So yeah. Oh oh! I got back my test papers anws. my A maths got 18/20? which totally sucked. cos I screwed up that question. and only found out after talking to phyllis online that day after the test. Oh wells. and I got back my chem paper also. not bad I guess. though had a few blanks at the end, which just reminds me of my psle science paper. HAha. Anws, I got 17.5/25. Oh ya! my chinese also man! MIRACLE! I PASSED! haha. 26.5/50 yo!
Enough about sch. I'm bored talking about it alrd.
Hmm..I haven't seen a few ppl for quite awhile alrd...Haha. Just random. lol.
V-day's coming up! Chey...it doesnt matter me anws. Hahaha!
Okay okay. I've been good these few days(: Rocks much. And my fringe has been cut off anws. Okay...thats all for now.
18:01, & I live by faith and not by sight for you
Friday 1 February 2008
Hey ho. busy much.
ytd dint even get to touch the comp..hahs.
Anws, today was say, unpleasent?
Had 2 full periods of ss at the start. and gosh the teacher was boring alright. and then got back my E Maths results for the class test today. and hell I got pissed by the results. 19/20. And the one mark that I lost, was not cause of carelessness or wrong answer or what shit. it was cause I needed to do workings. Like wth can. DAMN! Anws...what the heck ba. its over now, move on.
Next week will have 3 tests in that short 2 days. gosh. First up, chinese, followed by add maths and chem. Haix. and tmr, sun and mon will be packed like hell. Okay...thats just how life's been and going to be in the next few days. One word to describe sec 3 life:stress.
15:19, & I live by faith and not by sight for you
